I often close my eyes and I can see you smile You reach out for my hand and I'm woken from my dream. Your heart was never mine, I never had your love and I never will. Every night, I'm lying awake, thinking maybe one day you'll love me like I've always loved you. But you can't love me as I loved you when you can't even look straight in my eyes ~❤
By kisstherainlyric

Monday, August 6, 2012

just read this comment from a page of my facebook!!
so agree with him ( a foreigner )
So,since the people from the other country commented so clearly about this issue.
why not the government see it ?

"... This article was written without fear or favour, and it is up to us to digest individually the truth of the matter, especially for all Malaysians (irrespective of race, colour, creed or religion).
To: The highly respected Tun Mahathir,

China is coming up, India is coming up, Vietnam is coming up and now even Russia is on the rise. In this flat world that is all wired up and regardless whether we are Malaysian Malay, Chinese or Indian, and if Malaysia does not progress, all of us would become history of this country!

Without the Malay, Chinese could not do well in the country and without the Chinese, Malay would not do well. Both have to work together to bring up Malaysia and mitigate the acute impact that is being brought about by the globalisation.

For me, a true leader is someone who has the foresight that not only focuses on one particular group in the country but take care of the future of everyone. A good leader is someone who knows what is the biggest threat the country is facing and directs the people to fight off the threat. A leader is also someone who is impartial that has the ability to promote harmony in the country for a long period of time.
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UMNO is a political looser that leads the country to nowhere. They do not understand what is going on in the outside world. They have no clue where Malaysia will be in the next 30 years. With the 3 new superpowers, i.e. India, China and Russia standing tall and high together with the USA and the Europe Union, they do not know what kind of world it would be and how Malaysia is going to compete and share the ever smaller slice of cake of the world economy. They only know how to get the Malays to fight with other Non-Malays on tiny issues within Malaysia, while these races know jolly well that the issues they are fighting are trivial and are totally self-satisfying.

UMNO does not give a damn to how the poor Malays are going to live in the future and they do not care about the real benefits of the poor Malays. They only want the votes from them. The NEP is a good evidence on how they benefit the cronies, instead of the poor Malays. Despite all their despicable acts they are still in the power.
The highly respected Tun,

As you are aware, the Malays control the rights to all the lands and all other natural resources in this country. They control all government institutions, GLC and State owned companies. The Malays dominate the lawmaking process in Malaysia; The Malays control the decision making process in formulating the economy policies. The Malays own the largest national assets and the Malays are given shares in the public listed companies for free. The Malays have also been given all kind of priorities when it comes to buying properties, awarding of public contracts, tertiary education opportunities, awarding of scholarships and even getting a job in government departments.

With all these privileges and rights enjoyed by the Malays, you are saying nothing has been done enough to help the Malays to catch up with other races, mainly the Chinese. Then what else should Malaysia do to satisfy the Malays? Did the Chinese seize or rob anything away from the Malays or was all their wealth, a result of their hard work? If it is all due to their hard work, why do you say it is unfair? I don't quite get your point here.
May I humbly ask you what do you expect the Chinese to do if your so-called NEP did not achieve the desired result? Would the Malays be happy if the ethnic Chinese in this country do any of the followings:

ØSurrender their assets and hard earned money to the Malays unconditionally;
ØNot to engage in any business activities;
ØNot to score As in all sort of examinations;
ØNot to make money that is more than the Malays are earning;
ØNot to advance to higher education; or
ØRenounce their citizenships and go back to China or migrate to some other countries?

I am a foreigner but I am surprised that your intention is to divide your own country. I think you are mainly targeting the Chinese. Frankly, tell us, what do you expect the Chinese to do in order to achieve what is so called "equality" meant by you?
Tun, after all these criticism you have against the present government, I feel that you are starting to loose your rationality on your arguments. You have run out of good reasons to convince us. I guess it could be due to your accumulating jealousy of Mr. Lee Kuan Yew, your former counterpart in Singapore.

But reality is always hard to accept. No matter how, you have to accept the fact that he is regarded the Father of Singapore but you are not regarded the Father of Malaysia; you have to accept the fact that Mr. Lee is able to influence the government of Singapore until the day he dies but you have not been able to influence the government from the moment you stepped down as PM.

You must also accept the fact that he is still very popular on the world stage and a leader respected by many but you are not quite. Because of these jealousies, you are starting to accumulate imbalances in yourself that leads you to embark on a series of action to attack your successors.
It is very obvious that you are not happy when your successors are more popular than you. Is there any good of doing that? What is your intention? Can't you take it easy?

During your time, you criticised most of the developed countries especially the Western Countries out of jealousy and after stepping down as PM you criticise every single soul remained in the cabinet for not listening to you. When will you ever stop criticising any people? Can't you respect the decision of others?

Back to your recent blog, is there anything wrong with the Chinese in this country?

Did they seize or rob the money away from the Malays?

Did they have the ability to come out with any policies to marginalise the Malays?

Did they dominate the lawmaking process of this country?
Did they formulate the economy policies in this country?

Did they control the government departments in this country?

Did they control the state owned companies and GLC in this country?

Did they control the country's largest oil companies and banks?

You know the answer, right?

Malays are the one who dominate the lawmaking process of this country.

Malays are the one that formulate the economy policies in this country that favours the Malays.

Malays are the ones that control the government departments, state owned companies and GLC.
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Malays are the ones that control the funds in this country.

Malays are also the ones that control the largest oil companies and banking industry in this country.

With all these rights enjoyed by the Malays, what else do you want the Chinese to do?

Surrender their houses and savings and their wealth that they earned with their hard work to the Malays? Or ask all the Chinese to renounce their citizenship and go back to China?

Have you ever thought of the fact after 30 years of implementing NEP, why it does not achieve the desired result? Or it does achieve but being denied.
Under the NEP there are a series of policies that favours the Malays. If with all these policies, it still does not give the Malays what they want, what else do you want the Chinese to do? Is the Chinese to be blamed because they are too hard working? Or the Malays to be blamed because they do not treasure the opportunities have given?

You know very well the NEP has been misused and it only benefits the cronies... So if you have designed NEP to only benefits the cronies, please don't say it is the problem of Chinese that NEP does not achieve its result. It has nothing to do with the Chinese but NEP and the Malay themselves.
This is a globalised world, Chinese and Malays should not be fighting against each other because Malaysia is competing with other countries. China used to be backward and lagging behind Malaysia but now they have caught up and have even surpassed Malaysia. Can we ask them to slow down their development? If they refuse to listen, can we make a complaint to the United Nations that China is developing too fast and this is very unfair to Malaysia, which adapts a more passive approach? Who gives you the right to prevent others from progressing?

Who do you think you are? This is a flat world (Obviously Tun did not read the book named "The World is Flat"). Don't be so narrow minded to only focus on the Chinese or Malay in Malaysia. We should now look at the world as a flat world. If Malaysia does not progress, no matter we are Malays or Chinese, we would be extinct one day!

Have a God-blessed day.
P.S. Next he is not a Malay, an Indian by birth, he is taking advantage of the NEP to rob the country. ..."

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

遵守许过的承诺!!

我不知道该怎么开始说起,
这个事情都一直藏在我的心里好久好久了.
"我想他,我爱他" 
真的好想好想告诉他"我想他,我爱他" ~~
这是我对他的心声...

人人说,
"女儿对爸爸来说也是另外一个爱人哦~~ "
人人也说,
"爸爸是每一个女儿的第一个男朋友~~" 

我现在真的觉得这两句话都非常正确!!
对我来说,爸爸真的就是我的第一个男朋友.
也从我的亲戚形容之下,多我爸爸来说,除了我妈妈,我就想他的另外一个爱人. 

说真的, 我感到非常遗憾,没能在常常对他说我有多想他,有多爱他,有多开心看到他.
哪怕,就算我们吵架.我也非常地想他.
我真的非常后会,没能好好孝顺他, 有时还会违逆他. 
而到了今日,才知道,一切都太迟了.

人呢~ 往往都会把很多事都忽略了, 不去在乎.
等到了真正失去了的那一天才知道滋味,才知道后悔,惭愧.

Daddy 已经离开我至今有49天了.
我好想他,不过这49天里, 星期一到五,我都不怎么会想他,因为daddy 通常都不在家.
我很怕就了我就会把daddy 忘了. 因为忙碌的学校生活.
daddy 不会再打回家说有没有回来,或是找mummy.

Daddy 走得太太太突然了.
回想起那一天,真的很惊人,也很让人伤心.
我当时什么都不知道,就只知道我想daddy, 我不要daddy 离开我. 
从那一天至今, 我都一直觉得daddy 的离开是虚幻的~~
这一切都是梦, 一场恶梦. 不过却永远都不会醒来的恶梦>.< 
我有好多好多话要告诉daddy, 很多东西都不会,很需要他.
但是他却离我们而去了.
生活依然要过,样样事情都要学,不会就问.
没有了Daddy的依靠,就只剩下了自己的独立陪伴.

Daddy都对我们抱有好大好大的愿望.
我们的前途,他都很关注,很担心.

所以我一定会一直走下去,不管未来的路有多坎坷,有多少的障碍,我都会把daddy 对我的心愿完成的!! 那是我唯一剩下可以做的事.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

27/3

it was really a tired day,
especially i gave gone through a wonderful night on monday
then after we are back home,my friend called and asking about her lost purse
i was worried for the whole night
i don't want to have the blame on making her purse lost, or get any accusation of stealing her purse

so on today,we went out for the purpose of report a pick pocket file to the police
we went to the batu berendam police station, there were 10 of us at that time
2 cars was out again, and 10 of us sits and wait for my friend in the police station


the police told my friend that no need to report police, straight away go and do a new ic at JPN
i feel very weird...know right, whenever a person lost their ic, surely we have to report police
so that if in case, the person misused the ic for bad and dangerous action.

but since they police women told us no need to make a report, so we decide to go JPN for the ic
before that we had our breakfast at a tasty chicken rice shop at melaka baru, where my dad usually bring us there.

then finish breakfast, we straight away go to JPN for my friends ic.
we waited like hell long. if im not wrong, we have waited for 30-40 plus of number until it reached the number of waiting.

who know, the fellow say we need to case a file to the police to do a new ic, if not then we have to pay RM110
luckily, my friend's mmu exam slip still kept inside her file, so that had proof that she is still a student, so she get discount to student price.

then finish everything, we go back to campus.
and continue our class, till 6 go back home was like too exhausted
i slept from 6 till the next day morning
in between i wake up for dinner and bathe then continues my sleeps
it was really tired

Monday, March 26, 2012

26/3

tonight is a very happy day
i think i never had been this happy before
the most happiest dinner i ever had till now

i had my dinner with my friend at
wonderful steamboat buffet

so many laughing we have during dinner
have nice food too xp

there are 9 of us, two cars
4 girls and 6 boys
since is a steamboat, we can take whatever we want,

and how many we want.
we girls doesn't take much like boys does

the boys, was like OMG
it was like a person never eat before

tones of food was taken by them 

and they have taken uncountable times of prawn.
and each time they take,
i can say that it is more than 30 numbers of prawn.

another friend- Felix, loves vegetable so much
the way he took the vegetable was like
he only eats vegetable and no meat
 

started our meal after everybody have taken all their portion of food
and start steamboating
vegetables, mushrooms, meat, fried wantan, fried "tauki", prawn, crab,

fishball, meat ball, shells, lala, all we stuff in side and wait for it to cook

after eating for awhile, the boys take prawn again for few times
one of them taking care of pealing off the shrimp 

another one eating the shrimp. 
the shrimp they have eaten is like... WOW

that is not all the amount they have settle,
 there are more other side
and was not taken.

they also eats lots of seafood (lala, kerang, crab)
i wonder will they have high cholestrol
after this dinner
.....

the 2nd part was about the fried wantan and fried "tauki"
they took a lot of it, but difficult to finish it
so Felix was assign to finish it
as he was the one who also took so much to the wantan and taoki

he can't finish it so he give it to the friend beside him (you wen)
that particular moment,
you wen was eating ice cream
and Felix doesn't even know you wen was eating ice cream
so Felix straight away put the taoki into you wen's bowl

the  best part is
you wen straight away scold Felix
"fuck you, i was eating ice cream man!"
and Felix was blur at that moment
he was like totally stun for a moment after he got yelled by you wen
 we girls sitting at the next combined table and the boys from the same table
was shock to know about it
and the 1st thing to do was to laugh

our laugh sounds like thunder roaring in the sky.
it was damn so loud !!
i guess, all the customer in the restaurant
sure turn and look at us, our table.
and think. wow , WTH is going on there...

we non stop laughing, until we can't continue
they both ( youwen and Felix)
both quarrelling, who is gonna eat that ?

we keep on laughing from the starts till the end of our dinner
then we girls stop eating quite early
cause we can't continue filling our stomach anymore
and we wait for the boys to finish their food and we made our payment

total of the bill is RM214.32

finish our dinner, we leave and go back to campus
and get rested

i was a precious moment to be remembered.
i can't stop laughing even when i reached home
whenever i think about the funny part of our dinner
i will just laugh.

honestly, it was a fine, happy, enjoyable and crazy dinner
i ever had till now



Friday, March 9, 2012

呵呵
想起来都好开心哦

昨晚,我好早就睡觉了(我也不知道为什么哦)
也因此法了好梦
不知道如何形容我的梦
我也很想分享这梦。。

不过呢,
经过了那么多伤心的经历
终于在梦里笑,梦醒后回想也在笑

醒来了之后就难以入眠
就开电话看小说

小说也真好搞笑的情趣也很多
呵呵

真的把我的心情逗得开开心心^^

让我过了一个快乐的临晨

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

最近,常常都觉得什么事都很烦感
常常都是没带着笑容的上上下下的
哎~~

有时后,还蛮对我个人的人生生活感到可悲
总是觉得没有人了解我,知道我要什么,知道我的性格
感觉上...我好像是一个机器人似的。。

家里的人更别说了, 我妈和我的感情根本就是不如我妈和我弟的感情
什么都是他们对,我就一定是错的了
完完全全都没有顾虑我的感受
有时后真的很难咽下这种的感受

我妈常认为我是个什么都不会做的人
而, 却
常常拿我和我弟比较。。
他们常常对着电脑有不看她说一声
我呢??
对着电脑多一点就说电脑不是给我玩的
电脑是拿来做工的,写功课的

我用电脑看戏,就说要看就等每个人在才看
而我弟呢??无时无刻在电脑前看戏,她说也没说他们

我有个妹妹,不过就常常不合
根本就没有把我当成姐姐看待
为了她,妈咪叫我做什么我都会做
她什么都不知道还说一大堆的废话。

还记得啊, 当她考P|MR时
我感冒了,妈咪说不要传染给她
因为要靠PMR
没办法咯, 牺牲一点睡楼下咯

她什么都不懂,还对我大呼小叫的
看了都讨厌
超后悔当时睡楼下为了她的PMR
现在考6 A啦,还在我面前"唱响"呢!!

看了都一肚子火药,都快爆炸了呢!!
现在动不动就对我发脾气
看了真火大!!
还要跟我吵架呢!!
煮好了午餐,就大家一起吃嘛
她不是, 宁可吃快速面
不吃早说!
我不必要费心去想到底要煮些什么来吃
真是气到爆炸!!

我妈呢就好像狗眼看人低
弟妹考得好就什么都无所谓咯
我考4A,什么都不好
好像很丢脸
4A 好过没有一个A啦。。。

简直就是没有把我当成一回事。
我知道, 他们是长辈
说什么就是什么,
我都长那么大了啦
男朋友都没有一个
为什么?
他们反对咯, 说什么现在是读书的时候
读书就读书,谈什么恋爱!?

是是是, 他们是对的, 我就是错的
自己的儿子有女朋友都不说
自己的儿子做错事所两三句就好了
我呢?
自己买手机,还得跪在观音娘娘面前呢!!
简直是不公平。!!



现在常常都是被欺负
朋友的欺负我不敢说
弟妹的欺负我不能多说
什么委屈都是自己扛,自己咽下

什么都是一个人,伴都没有
他们要什么就有什么
我要什么都必须搬出来一大堆的理由给他们

总觉得,自己好像都一直是一个人的
没人理解,没人在乎,没人关心
觉得啊,过多几年孤单的人生就能习惯了
应该就没有什么好在意了

哎。。。我的人生怎么会变成这样呢??
现在就好像只有blog陪我做伴
朋友什么都没有啦。。。
blog...有你真好

Monday, March 5, 2012

等待的心情

前几个礼拜的考试,考也考完了。
 假期也差不过花得七七八八了。 


新学期还没开始之前呢,
 成绩当然就要先出出了啦~~

  哎~~ 每当考试成绩要出炉时,
 每个人都会波不期待,然后就争着要浏览观看成绩了

而我呢,
也一样啊~~

等是当然等的咯,
紧张也是紧张的咯,
超怕会不及格的咯。

每次都是这样的><
超级怕,呜呜呜

~~~

Saturday, March 3, 2012

on the 18th of feb

this year (2012)  
Avril Lavigne came to Malaysia 
for black star tour concert. 

i bought the ticket for the concert
i never knew that i will be that crazy for going this kind of concert 
 for the very first time.

Avril was the coolest, pretty, pop-princess 
i ever admire
 love her so much !!

what a crowd. 
well at least the place i got (stand) was not so 
far away from the stage

i was cool to be in her concert !!
too bad my camera's battery die earlier 
to catch down the songs she sang in the end!!

she rocks!!!

woo hoo !!!

first of all getting her ticket



pictures of her during the concert










Friday, February 17, 2012

考试了

考试啊!!
惨了啦,都没有心情读书
这次的考试肯定是抬不起头了啦><

真的超讨厌的。。每次都是在华人新年过后才考试
这样哪里有心要读书呢??

又不看马来人新年后直接考试。。
靠!!!

讨厌你啦!!
还1 malaysia 咧

xp

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

嘻嘻
考试归考试
我要的东西怎么能就这样放弃呢??

哈哈, 就在那天(星期三)
偷偷去了KL
去买票咯

第一次那么想要去演唱会耶!!
一个人上去, 其实还蛮怕怕的。。

KL 那么多亲戚啊, 被抓到还不大件事吗?
就像我弟弟咯, 跟朋友上KL 最后被我小舅
逮到!!

呼~~ 好才,我幸运点
。。
哇~~ 好快耶, 时间也很逼紧哟

样样都要精心细算咯。。。
时间分配啊, 这些之类的。

一个人到那么大的城市还是第一次耶
样样事情都要注意哦。

KL 是很危险的。
扒手,色魔,色狼 样样都齐全的。
当然要好好保护自己,
保护自己的钱财啊。。。

不会什么就问什么,
不会什么就找人帮忙。
哇, 刚好中午时没有人
卖轻快铁(monorial )的票啊。
就要自己换token了

我有够呆的咯,
傻傻的, 还好以为姐姐(其实也没大我几岁啦)
好心帮了我

呵呵。。。我们两个还迷迷糊糊看地图
最后还是谢谢她啦!! 帮了我大忙哦。
不然哪~~不用回家了哦。。

我倒KL也快
买东西也快
回马六甲也快

时间有限嘛~~
没法咯。

不错的经验啦
因为什么都是冲冲茫茫的, 
赶时间的
所以没有什么主意身边的东西

就知道锁定要的东西(目标)
往前走得到就是了
然后就回^^

回之前就买了一个寿司
吃不多,不过寿司啊
就很容易医饱肚子

等巴士会马六甲时就吃了。
大概等了40 分钟后巴士就到了

过了两个小时就回到了马六甲了哦!!
等的时候啊,就有一班的外国人
他们都好搞笑哦!
皮肤白白,羡慕死了><

因为去KL 的时候都是很急忙的,
没什么拍照
会的时候,信息了朋友
朋友却不信我独自到KL
就拍下了一些照片啊
路边的牌之类的, 好当个证据。。。嘻嘻





Monday, February 6, 2012

其实关于我的点点滴滴是没人知道的
大家知道的我多数都是自己把自己
包装的好好的
包装得坚强点
包装得完美一点

其实我个人的内心很伤
本人认为自己的生活好闷淡的
色彩的生活离我好遥远。

我是个怎么样的人本人有时也分不清楚
就是觉得包装得太好了,
 所以真实的自己已经开始变得隐隐约约
慢慢消失了

我是个不在他人的面前掉泪
因为我不想让他人认为我是哭哭啼啼的人
我的确不是哭哭啼啼的人呐!!

我也不想要让他人认为我是软弱的人
我是不是坚强的人呢??
偶尔吧。。哈哈

我其实也蛮会掉眼泪的哦
呵呵。。。不要小看我哦。。
我多数都是看戏时掉泪的
本人很容易被感动
很触感一下下的
。。。
所以看到感动的啊, 伤心的啊, 太开心的是啊
我都会掉泪咯


本人的脾气属于怪胎的吧
因为我脾气能够瞬间变化的哦
通常变化是这样子的
开始我和一个人很谈得来,
可是就有可能对方说错了一些事或一些我不喜欢提到的
就这样我的脾气就是瞬间变化了。。
哎~~

江山易改本性难移丫!!

是的我家庭很大,
也有很多疼我的人
可是就是不知道为什么
总觉得还是空洞的。

本人也是会害羞的
虽然体型肉肉的,
说勇敢有不勇敢似的
我还是会害羞啊!!

我认为跟男生说话真的很害羞的。
有时跟好帅的男生说话
还会有一点点的自卑感哦。。
哎~~

本人的朋友不多
最好的朋友都去到好远读书了
如果发生了什么伤心的事
就没得疗伤了

好想念她哦!!

我就是这样的人呐!!
我可以很自私,坏脾气,自大
但是我也能够不自私,脾气好, 不自大。。

所以我的人就是这样子啦^_^





Saturday, January 28, 2012

My daddy

my daddy is a nice person said mummy ^_^
Daddy is  good person, he never complain about anything bout my mum's dad ( grandpa)
come over my house for dinner for like everyday in every year.
Daddy also never complain about mummy giving money to her brother ( my uncle) because my uncle is jobless now and he fetch us go and back from school without asking money as a job payment.


For me and my siblings, we think of daddy is a very strict person  because he use to cane us whenever we do any mistake. For example pouring out water from the bathroom's window, fill water in to a half full shampoo etc.
He beat us with only his hand on our thigh, then after a minute, a red hand palm mark will appear obviously on our thigh. : ( that was when we are small. Nowadays, he don't do like that = ]


All of us are afraid of him, my siblings, cousins all are so afraid of him.haha = ]
Maybe because his face obviously shows how strict he is ...haha ....


Daddy mention that when I was a baby, he went and squeeze milk from goat for me( at sabah). He said that time so coincident the milk not enough.


Mummy also say daddy, is a very straight person, he don't think 360 degree on a thing, whatever he heard from the promoter, the next minute he is hooked on that promotion. He also didn't think of his friend can and may just back stab him, he just trusted them blindly. Aiyooo... XD


Daddy also didn't complain much about mummy didn't help grandma (dad's mum) bake cookies for chinese new year, or cook delicious food like what grandma had cook. Seriously, grandma's cooking is very tasty, she don't need to taste the food before or after she add any taste, by the time you eat, the taste of the food is just nice.
I love her sambal ikan, asam fish, and of course chinese new year's pineapple tart.


Daddy is a sleep lover too, he can nap for few hours, the best thing is he snores the whole time = ]
The basic information about my Daddy = D

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

回忆。。。

说真的,
我觉得, 我自己没有恋爱过。
但是就是在我 Form 4 时,就有一个恋情。

这个恋情不知道算不算,有可能是暧昧吧。
我和他从没见过面, 一起逛街。
那是我自己都接受不了我的体型
别人当然哪会接受得了呢??
也是因为我的自卑感,导致我们从来没见过面。。。

他本是马六甲人, 不过为了生活嘛
到了新加坡做工咯。。
说真的, 有时等他回来jb 家都很晚了
再等他信息,有时也会有点不耐烦的
因为我不喜欢等人的感觉,当然我也不让他人等我

我和他就好象非常亲密的好朋友信息使得
不过呢,他好体贴, 晚上回来就会信息我
睡前就会call 我。真的很幸福的感觉。。。

突然有一天, 他信息中说分手!!
当天是愚人节
我还以为他是在开玩笑的。
不过。。。是真的

就这样我们分了
过几天后, 电话来也他的一封信
来至他的号码,不过信里说
“ 我是他的朋友” 
还说他住了院,原因是严重的胃病导致的

我好紧张,call  了几通电话,没人接
短讯好多封
最后还是不肯会应。

我心想,有可能是我太烦了吧?
可是我都是处于关心他啊

后来, 我觉得,既然他都不理我了
怎么信息都不回,call 也不接
我放弃了

最后一封短讯,我说了
既然他那么想要解脱, 不要在一起
那我就放手好了

传了这封短讯,他回信了
不过他却说
“是你先放弃的, 是你说给我自由的, 我们各走各的
还有我没有开刀住院,是我骗你的”

看了之后,是很伤心
因为他骗我, 还怪我,说是我先放齐的
本来就是他的先放弃的
我sms了,call 了就是没人接
那我在多做挣扎也是无畏的。

过了好久,大概一两个月吧。
在朋友的鼓励之下,脱离了悲伤
开始新的生活。
这时
他的一封信
“我们和好好吗??”

超大的打击!!

我考虑了,之后
决定不要和好,因为骗对方的
同情心,感情
对我来说是不可原谅的。

我拒绝了他
。。。

故事就是这样。
这样算是爱情吗?我不明了。


个人对爱的感言

女生/女人,往往都是怀念,及放不下甜蜜的回忆。。
不过想会这些回忆,就会令她们落泪。 
就算再坚强的女生/女人也会伤心难过,
不再众人前落泪,不独自掉泪,
 心里也会很难过的, 真的好想是在滴血的。。。
当然男生/男人也是会这样的。

是的, 女生/女人想什么真的很难猜测
因为她们(包括我)常常随时都会改变主意的
相信男生/男人也会, 只不过不比女生/女人

当然, 差性格的男生是有。
不过, 差个性的女生也有啊。
世界是平等的。

爱情有苦有甜,有酸也有咸
这是事实!!
再甜的恋情,也有苦,酸,咸, 辣的时刻;
相反地,再苦的恋情, 也有甜蜜,开心的时刻

。。。