I often close my eyes and I can see you smile You reach out for my hand and I'm woken from my dream. Your heart was never mine, I never had your love and I never will. Every night, I'm lying awake, thinking maybe one day you'll love me like I've always loved you. But you can't love me as I loved you when you can't even look straight in my eyes ~❤
By kisstherainlyric

Saturday, January 28, 2012

My daddy

my daddy is a nice person said mummy ^_^
Daddy is  good person, he never complain about anything bout my mum's dad ( grandpa)
come over my house for dinner for like everyday in every year.
Daddy also never complain about mummy giving money to her brother ( my uncle) because my uncle is jobless now and he fetch us go and back from school without asking money as a job payment.


For me and my siblings, we think of daddy is a very strict person  because he use to cane us whenever we do any mistake. For example pouring out water from the bathroom's window, fill water in to a half full shampoo etc.
He beat us with only his hand on our thigh, then after a minute, a red hand palm mark will appear obviously on our thigh. : ( that was when we are small. Nowadays, he don't do like that = ]


All of us are afraid of him, my siblings, cousins all are so afraid of him.haha = ]
Maybe because his face obviously shows how strict he is ...haha ....


Daddy mention that when I was a baby, he went and squeeze milk from goat for me( at sabah). He said that time so coincident the milk not enough.


Mummy also say daddy, is a very straight person, he don't think 360 degree on a thing, whatever he heard from the promoter, the next minute he is hooked on that promotion. He also didn't think of his friend can and may just back stab him, he just trusted them blindly. Aiyooo... XD


Daddy also didn't complain much about mummy didn't help grandma (dad's mum) bake cookies for chinese new year, or cook delicious food like what grandma had cook. Seriously, grandma's cooking is very tasty, she don't need to taste the food before or after she add any taste, by the time you eat, the taste of the food is just nice.
I love her sambal ikan, asam fish, and of course chinese new year's pineapple tart.


Daddy is a sleep lover too, he can nap for few hours, the best thing is he snores the whole time = ]
The basic information about my Daddy = D

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

回忆。。。

说真的,
我觉得, 我自己没有恋爱过。
但是就是在我 Form 4 时,就有一个恋情。

这个恋情不知道算不算,有可能是暧昧吧。
我和他从没见过面, 一起逛街。
那是我自己都接受不了我的体型
别人当然哪会接受得了呢??
也是因为我的自卑感,导致我们从来没见过面。。。

他本是马六甲人, 不过为了生活嘛
到了新加坡做工咯。。
说真的, 有时等他回来jb 家都很晚了
再等他信息,有时也会有点不耐烦的
因为我不喜欢等人的感觉,当然我也不让他人等我

我和他就好象非常亲密的好朋友信息使得
不过呢,他好体贴, 晚上回来就会信息我
睡前就会call 我。真的很幸福的感觉。。。

突然有一天, 他信息中说分手!!
当天是愚人节
我还以为他是在开玩笑的。
不过。。。是真的

就这样我们分了
过几天后, 电话来也他的一封信
来至他的号码,不过信里说
“ 我是他的朋友” 
还说他住了院,原因是严重的胃病导致的

我好紧张,call  了几通电话,没人接
短讯好多封
最后还是不肯会应。

我心想,有可能是我太烦了吧?
可是我都是处于关心他啊

后来, 我觉得,既然他都不理我了
怎么信息都不回,call 也不接
我放弃了

最后一封短讯,我说了
既然他那么想要解脱, 不要在一起
那我就放手好了

传了这封短讯,他回信了
不过他却说
“是你先放弃的, 是你说给我自由的, 我们各走各的
还有我没有开刀住院,是我骗你的”

看了之后,是很伤心
因为他骗我, 还怪我,说是我先放齐的
本来就是他的先放弃的
我sms了,call 了就是没人接
那我在多做挣扎也是无畏的。

过了好久,大概一两个月吧。
在朋友的鼓励之下,脱离了悲伤
开始新的生活。
这时
他的一封信
“我们和好好吗??”

超大的打击!!

我考虑了,之后
决定不要和好,因为骗对方的
同情心,感情
对我来说是不可原谅的。

我拒绝了他
。。。

故事就是这样。
这样算是爱情吗?我不明了。


个人对爱的感言

女生/女人,往往都是怀念,及放不下甜蜜的回忆。。
不过想会这些回忆,就会令她们落泪。 
就算再坚强的女生/女人也会伤心难过,
不再众人前落泪,不独自掉泪,
 心里也会很难过的, 真的好想是在滴血的。。。
当然男生/男人也是会这样的。

是的, 女生/女人想什么真的很难猜测
因为她们(包括我)常常随时都会改变主意的
相信男生/男人也会, 只不过不比女生/女人

当然, 差性格的男生是有。
不过, 差个性的女生也有啊。
世界是平等的。

爱情有苦有甜,有酸也有咸
这是事实!!
再甜的恋情,也有苦,酸,咸, 辣的时刻;
相反地,再苦的恋情, 也有甜蜜,开心的时刻

。。。