A long lost blogger I've visit since....

Been thinking a lot lately, thinking on wanted to write a story of my dad in my life because recently, each day, there will be one little thing reminds me about him. So, i log in to my blog today, i found out that it has been a year since i last log in to my blog.
Honestly, I don't really think there is anybody reading or following my blog. It makes me feel puny, small, invisible... sometimes im thinking what i should post about to my blog. i mean, it's like nothing much to update at all.. Now, as im thinking what to write, I'm thinking on shutting down my blog. What do you think? Yay? or Nay ? haha XD finally use this term.

A new semester going on now, it's been the third week of the trimester. Not much things going on, but good news that there are something different happen and changes. I'm trying and struggling to adapt to it. hopefully it will be fine eventually.
hmm.... i guess i'm just gonna sign out now and let my writing flow as i have the initiative to write more.
I'm sorry to my reader that following my post (if there is any) regarding I was disappear for a whole year. Perhaps, i should draft out what i should post into my blog. Adios :)

just read this comment from a page of my facebook!!
so agree with him ( a foreigner )
So,since the people from the other country commented so clearly about this issue.
why not the government see it ?

"... This article was written without fear or favour, and it is up to us to digest individually the truth of the matter, especially for all Malaysians (irrespective of race, colour, creed or religion).
To: The highly respected Tun Mahathir,

China is coming up, India is coming up, Vietnam is coming up and now even Russia is on the rise. In this flat world that is all wired up and regardless whether we are Malaysian Malay, Chinese or Indian, and if Malaysia does not progress, all of us would become history of this country!

Without the Malay, Chinese could not do well in the country and without the Chinese, Malay would not do well. Both have to work together to bring up Malaysia and mitigate the acute impact that is being brought about by the globalisation.

For me, a true leader is someone who has the foresight that not only focuses on one particular group in the country but take care of the future of everyone. A good leader is someone who knows what is the biggest threat the country is facing and directs the people to fight off the threat. A leader is also someone who is impartial that has the ability to promote harmony in the country for a long period of time.
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UMNO is a political looser that leads the country to nowhere. They do not understand what is going on in the outside world. They have no clue where Malaysia will be in the next 30 years. With the 3 new superpowers, i.e. India, China and Russia standing tall and high together with the USA and the Europe Union, they do not know what kind of world it would be and how Malaysia is going to compete and share the ever smaller slice of cake of the world economy. They only know how to get the Malays to fight with other Non-Malays on tiny issues within Malaysia, while these races know jolly well that the issues they are fighting are trivial and are totally self-satisfying.

UMNO does not give a damn to how the poor Malays are going to live in the future and they do not care about the real benefits of the poor Malays. They only want the votes from them. The NEP is a good evidence on how they benefit the cronies, instead of the poor Malays. Despite all their despicable acts they are still in the power.
The highly respected Tun,

As you are aware, the Malays control the rights to all the lands and all other natural resources in this country. They control all government institutions, GLC and State owned companies. The Malays dominate the lawmaking process in Malaysia; The Malays control the decision making process in formulating the economy policies. The Malays own the largest national assets and the Malays are given shares in the public listed companies for free. The Malays have also been given all kind of priorities when it comes to buying properties, awarding of public contracts, tertiary education opportunities, awarding of scholarships and even getting a job in government departments.

With all these privileges and rights enjoyed by the Malays, you are saying nothing has been done enough to help the Malays to catch up with other races, mainly the Chinese. Then what else should Malaysia do to satisfy the Malays? Did the Chinese seize or rob anything away from the Malays or was all their wealth, a result of their hard work? If it is all due to their hard work, why do you say it is unfair? I don't quite get your point here.
May I humbly ask you what do you expect the Chinese to do if your so-called NEP did not achieve the desired result? Would the Malays be happy if the ethnic Chinese in this country do any of the followings:

ØSurrender their assets and hard earned money to the Malays unconditionally;
ØNot to engage in any business activities;
ØNot to score As in all sort of examinations;
ØNot to make money that is more than the Malays are earning;
ØNot to advance to higher education; or
ØRenounce their citizenships and go back to China or migrate to some other countries?

I am a foreigner but I am surprised that your intention is to divide your own country. I think you are mainly targeting the Chinese. Frankly, tell us, what do you expect the Chinese to do in order to achieve what is so called "equality" meant by you?
Tun, after all these criticism you have against the present government, I feel that you are starting to loose your rationality on your arguments. You have run out of good reasons to convince us. I guess it could be due to your accumulating jealousy of Mr. Lee Kuan Yew, your former counterpart in Singapore.

But reality is always hard to accept. No matter how, you have to accept the fact that he is regarded the Father of Singapore but you are not regarded the Father of Malaysia; you have to accept the fact that Mr. Lee is able to influence the government of Singapore until the day he dies but you have not been able to influence the government from the moment you stepped down as PM.

You must also accept the fact that he is still very popular on the world stage and a leader respected by many but you are not quite. Because of these jealousies, you are starting to accumulate imbalances in yourself that leads you to embark on a series of action to attack your successors.
It is very obvious that you are not happy when your successors are more popular than you. Is there any good of doing that? What is your intention? Can't you take it easy?

During your time, you criticised most of the developed countries especially the Western Countries out of jealousy and after stepping down as PM you criticise every single soul remained in the cabinet for not listening to you. When will you ever stop criticising any people? Can't you respect the decision of others?

Back to your recent blog, is there anything wrong with the Chinese in this country?

Did they seize or rob the money away from the Malays?

Did they have the ability to come out with any policies to marginalise the Malays?

Did they dominate the lawmaking process of this country?
Did they formulate the economy policies in this country?

Did they control the government departments in this country?

Did they control the state owned companies and GLC in this country?

Did they control the country's largest oil companies and banks?

You know the answer, right?

Malays are the one who dominate the lawmaking process of this country.

Malays are the one that formulate the economy policies in this country that favours the Malays.

Malays are the ones that control the government departments, state owned companies and GLC.
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Malays are the ones that control the funds in this country.

Malays are also the ones that control the largest oil companies and banking industry in this country.

With all these rights enjoyed by the Malays, what else do you want the Chinese to do?

Surrender their houses and savings and their wealth that they earned with their hard work to the Malays? Or ask all the Chinese to renounce their citizenship and go back to China?

Have you ever thought of the fact after 30 years of implementing NEP, why it does not achieve the desired result? Or it does achieve but being denied.
Under the NEP there are a series of policies that favours the Malays. If with all these policies, it still does not give the Malays what they want, what else do you want the Chinese to do? Is the Chinese to be blamed because they are too hard working? Or the Malays to be blamed because they do not treasure the opportunities have given?

You know very well the NEP has been misused and it only benefits the cronies... So if you have designed NEP to only benefits the cronies, please don't say it is the problem of Chinese that NEP does not achieve its result. It has nothing to do with the Chinese but NEP and the Malay themselves.
This is a globalised world, Chinese and Malays should not be fighting against each other because Malaysia is competing with other countries. China used to be backward and lagging behind Malaysia but now they have caught up and have even surpassed Malaysia. Can we ask them to slow down their development? If they refuse to listen, can we make a complaint to the United Nations that China is developing too fast and this is very unfair to Malaysia, which adapts a more passive approach? Who gives you the right to prevent others from progressing?

Who do you think you are? This is a flat world (Obviously Tun did not read the book named "The World is Flat"). Don't be so narrow minded to only focus on the Chinese or Malay in Malaysia. We should now look at the world as a flat world. If Malaysia does not progress, no matter we are Malays or Chinese, we would be extinct one day!

Have a God-blessed day.
P.S. Next he is not a Malay, an Indian by birth, he is taking advantage of the NEP to rob the country. ..."

遵守许过的承诺!!

我不知道该怎么开始说起,
这个事情都一直藏在我的心里好久好久了.
"我想他,我爱他" 
真的好想好想告诉他"我想他,我爱他" ~~

这是我对他的心声...

人人说,
"女儿对爸爸来说也是另外一个爱人哦~~ "
人人也说,
"爸爸是每一个女儿的第一个男朋友~~" 

我现在真的觉得这两句话都非常正确!!
对我来说,爸爸真的就是我的第一个男朋友.
也从我的亲戚形容之下,多我爸爸来说,除了我妈妈,我就想他的另外一个爱人. 

说真的, 我感到非常遗憾,没能在常常对他说我有多想他,有多爱他,有多开心看到他.
哪怕,就算我们吵架.我也非常地想他.
我真的非常后会,没能好好孝顺他, 有时还会违逆他. 

而到了今日,才知道,一切都太迟了.

人呢~ 往往都会把很多事都忽略了, 不去在乎.

等到了真正失去了的那一天才知道滋味,才知道后悔,惭愧.

Daddy 已经离开我至今有49天了.
我好想他,不过这49天里, 星期一到五,我都不怎么会想他,因为daddy 通常都不在家.
我很怕就了我就会把daddy 忘了. 因为忙碌的学校生活.

daddy 不会再打回家说有没有回来,或是找mummy.

Daddy 走得太太太突然了.
回想起那一天,真的很惊人,也很让人伤心.
我当时什么都不知道,就只知道我想daddy, 我不要daddy 离开我. 
从那一天至今, 我都一直觉得daddy 的离开是虚幻的~~
这一切都是梦, 一场恶梦. 不过却永远都不会醒来的恶梦>.< 

我有好多好多话要告诉daddy, 很多东西都不会,很需要他.
但是他却离我们而去了.
生活依然要过,样样事情都要学,不会就问.
没有了Daddy的依靠,就只剩下了自己的独立陪伴.

Daddy都对我们抱有好大好大的愿望.
我们的前途,他都很关注,很担心.

所以我一定会一直走下去,不管未来的路有多坎坷,有多少的障碍,我都会把daddy 对我的心愿完成的!! 那是我唯一剩下可以做的事.

27/3

it was really a tired day,
especially i gave gone through a wonderful night on monday
then after we are back home,my friend called and asking about her lost purse
i was worried for the whole night
i don't want to have the blame on making her purse lost, or get any accusation of stealing her purse

so on today,we went out for the purpose of report a pick pocket file to the police
we went to the batu berendam police station, there were 10 of us at that time
2 cars was out again, and 10 of us sits and wait for my friend in the police station


the police told my friend that no need to report police, straight away go and do a new ic at JPN
i feel very weird...know right, whenever a person lost their ic, surely we have to report police
so that if in case, the person misused the ic for bad and dangerous action.

but since they police women told us no need to make a report, so we decide to go JPN for the ic
before that we had our breakfast at a tasty chicken rice shop at melaka baru, where my dad usually bring us there.

then finish breakfast, we straight away go to JPN for my friends ic.
we waited like hell long. if im not wrong, we have waited for 30-40 plus of number until it reached the number of waiting.

who know, the fellow say we need to case a file to the police to do a new ic, if not then we have to pay RM110
luckily, my friend's mmu exam slip still kept inside her file, so that had proof that she is still a student, so she get discount to student price.

then finish everything, we go back to campus.
and continue our class, till 6 go back home was like too exhausted
i slept from 6 till the next day morning
in between i wake up for dinner and bathe then continues my sleeps
it was really tired

26/3

tonight is a very happy day
i think i never had been this happy before
the most happiest dinner i ever had till now

i had my dinner with my friend at
wonderful steamboat buffet

so many laughing we have during dinner
have nice food too xp

there are 9 of us, two cars
4 girls and 6 boys
since is a steamboat, we can take whatever we want,
and how many we want.
we girls doesn't take much like boys does

the boys, was like OMG
it was like a person never eat before

tones of food was taken by them 
and they have taken uncountable times of prawn.
and each time they take,
i can say that it is more than 30 numbers of prawn.

another friend- Felix, loves vegetable so much
the way he took the vegetable was like
he only eats vegetable and no meat
 
started our meal after everybody have taken all their portion of food
and start steamboating
vegetables, mushrooms, meat, fried wantan, fried "tauki", prawn, crab,
fishball, meat ball, shells, lala, all we stuff in side and wait for it to cook

after eating for awhile, the boys take prawn again for few times
one of them taking care of pealing off the shrimp 
another one eating the shrimp. 
the shrimp they have eaten is like... WOW

that is not all the amount they have settle,

 there are more other side

and was not taken.

they also eats lots of seafood (lala, kerang, crab)
i wonder will they have high cholestrol
after this dinner
.....

the 2nd part was about the fried wantan and fried "tauki"
they took a lot of it, but difficult to finish it
so Felix was assign to finish it
as he was the one who also took so much to the wantan and taoki

he can't finish it so he give it to the friend beside him (you wen)
that particular moment,
you wen was eating ice cream
and Felix doesn't even know you wen was eating ice cream
so Felix straight away put the taoki into you wen's bowl

the  best part is
you wen straight away scold Felix
"fuck you, i was eating ice cream man!"
and Felix was blur at that moment
he was like totally stun for a moment after he got yelled by you wen
 we girls sitting at the next combined table and the boys from the same table

was shock to know about it

and the 1st thing to do was to laugh

our laugh sounds like thunder roaring in the sky.
it was damn so loud !!
i guess, all the customer in the restaurant
sure turn and look at us, our table.
and think. wow , WTH is going on there...

we non stop laughing, until we can't continue

they both ( youwen and Felix)

both quarrelling, who is gonna eat that ?

we keep on laughing from the starts till the end of our dinner
then we girls stop eating quite early
cause we can't continue filling our stomach anymore
and we wait for the boys to finish their food and we made our payment

total of the bill is RM214.32

finish our dinner, we leave and go back to campus
and get rested

i was a precious moment to be remembered.
i can't stop laughing even when i reached home
whenever i think about the funny part of our dinner
i will just laugh.

honestly, it was a fine, happy, enjoyable and crazy dinner
i ever had till now