Me and Gina(the malaysian char bor)

          Today i've spent the day with my friend Gina Bhalan who called her self the Malaysian Char Bor.
i helped her starting her own blog and she named the blog of her's as the Malaysian Char Bor, this really gives me blast laugh!! What a unique title i ever heard.
Well, i went to her house is actually because of returning her steamy reading materials and get new one to read.
Today i felt quite tiring, and i duno why. im easily tired today. i feel sleepy too..LoL..

          Thought that i would spend my whole 1 week holiday with my wife a.k.a my greatest friend in the whole universe,but who knows she is now in money eyes now,she rather work and dun even try to get some time to study for her final that is after this Raya holiday week. Speaking of which,i dun even start study for my final too. Even is on the 20th of Sept, but still is near and im worried that i dun even start studying at all.
         
           Haiz...today my temper is a bit of out of control. i've been shouting towards my brother in the morning, and after i came back from my friend Gina's house. would it because of i just got my period back??..
No idea...haha..

No idea what've got into me ..

to be honest, i've don't know what've got happened on me .
im moody,im emo,im sad,im depressed

i hate this feeling.

recently, my dai yi mah always not on track,make me so dam sum.
go see doctor,doctor say maybe is my hormone got problem.
haiz....why is this kind of things happen to me ???
he oso say if i put on weight and the situation keep on i might going to the path of diabetes man !!!
DIABETES leh, dun play play o ...
it's a long life term of suffer leh >< walao,give me die i oso dun wan get this kind of sickness...

i never intake sweets,sweet carbonated drinks,any sweet stuff, even stopped my junk food so so long ago.
suddenly tell me that i might have this DIABETES call me go jump building i oso will jump de loh rather than get this kind of sickness.

now the only thing is wish,hope and pray to god for me not getting this sickness...><

im sad and emo  is because from fb i known a guy who have heart diseases,it is the third final stage le ..
he can go at anytime,the more i think about, the more im sad.

although i dun know him as well as my greatest friend, but still im sad because of his sick ...
i dun like bad things happen arround me.
i hate funeral, i hate all this negative things...

who can help me??drag me out of this kind of situation ...

5/8/11(Friday)

Friday

friday is always a free day to me .. 

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today i got morning class at 8 am till 10 am
although is a morning class
very difficult to get up this early.
but i did make it.


today my plan is to go shopping,
alone

my shopping list is 

♥ buy clothes

♥buy shoes

♥buy comics

♥buy some new makeup accessories 

♥some hair accessories

♥books perhaps

but i think i end up buying only few things
i can't get to buy clothes cuz is is too expensive

♥this both picture is hair clip accessories.♥

♥this both picture is my new shoe i bought from my shopping♥

although i didn't get to buy the clothes that i wanted to buy
but i got all this above

University's Life

i can feel my eyes are swollen
i can feel my body's temperature keep changing

i can feel the dizzyness of my head.

base on all this, i know if i continue the situation without
a rest
i know, i will fall down one day

CUZ I HAVEN'T SLEEPS FOR FEW DAYS!!

i can feel that my ability of staying up or be active has been
dramastically DECREASED!!

im tired of this kind of life,
i need some rest,
i need so space to breath,
i need to have somebody to support all the way.

my head are spinning while im typing the blog,
my eyes are like swollen while im typing this blog,

and all my hardwork,my time, my strength
on my work
was not appreciated by the group.
am i useless to you all??
when you all need me then you all ask for my help,
when you all dun need me
you will left me alone by the side
just like the child who are being left out by their parents by the road.

you may think that i've might be a bit dramatically,
but what i wrote now, here
is true, is the truth.!
what you are reading now is what im going through now!!

My life

i recently busying with my Uni's project.

a lot of thing happened around me recently.

all kind of problem, relationship,task, assignment and etc.

i think twice right now in front of my laptop, 

i dun think that i have solve the problem clean and sound.

i dun think that i have completely solve the problem.there are still got some left over from the problem.

recently, my friendship between my group of friend have changed....

changed into so unknown to me...i dun have the feel of friendship between them but just a feeling that we've been using each other all this time...the friendship bridge is just a appearance looking but the inside is just nothing but an empty tin.

i feel unsafe with them, i keep have the feeling of i've been used by people that i wished to have a long relationship. 

speaking about this something happen, one of my core sub have a group assignment. A group assignment are meant to finish together in a team, but i dun feel that im one of member in that particular team. i mean, the group have meeting about the assignment, but i never ever once knew about that it is so pathetic...it makes me feel that im not exist,not important to them at all. well then, if that case, then there is no friendship bond between us...until one day after class i wonder and ask them whether they have started to do the assignment?? then the person a.k.a friend told me that they have finished it. i was so surprise to hear that, cuz i got no idea what are they doing, what are they putting in the assignment. then she continues, she said since im not doing anything, so i will be the one to present the group and talk. it really hurts me more than i felt down, i feels like being bang by a big truck that come out of no way suddenly. 

other than that, i found that i dun even ever belong to that group of friend anymore. i suddenly feel so lonely, can i have my wife back???i nid her now by my side to comfort me that i still have her with me, i nid her now by my side walk with me up and down the whole day in the same campus. i just nid her now..~

im now groupless, friendless except the friends from same school in the campus, im all alone by myself in a stranger world. it is scary to stay in this kind of world.