how i envy every girl could have their love once

how i envy every girl could have embrace their love once

how i envy every girl could have kiss their love once

cause mine haven't started yet

cause what i want has not been mine before

cause what i wish has not come true yet 

every time i read post about love, 

you are the one appears in my mind's cloud

i miss the time when we use to be so close 

i miss the time when we use to talk about anything

i miss the time when we use to have fun with each other

i miss the time when we have anything to talk during that time .

but all have changed

i don't know why 

because you have already known the truth??

about how i felt for you ?

and you don't know how to face it ?

just let me know!

rather than being this condition now 

now we are not free to talking as we done once

now we are not having fun as we have done once

now we got nothing more nothing extra to talk like once we did before 

i miss the time

i wish to turn back the time 

i wish i could have keep my feeling deep in my heart 

so it would escape and show it on my face and let the rest them gossiping about ti 

may be im not the girl you wish to be with 

but at least as a friend,

simple friend, 

i wouldn't mind about it. 

all i want is to be with you even we are just friend and nothing else more

every time i keep comfort my self, 

i keep trying telling my self 

that 

one day! you will turn around and looked at me 

one day! you will turn around and be mine

because i have been waiting for you ever since that very 1st day .

the sadness of mine is so different with other who just broke up 

the sadness of mine is kind of pathetic.

will you ??

will you turn back?

will you once look at me ?

will you once turn to be mine and say

" thank you for waiting me " 

will this day coming ?

will this happens before it is too late??

will . not