i never knew what is this call

i never know this will last until now

i never know when will i end this feeling 

i also never know when i will stop loving you 

♥
♥

♥

all i know 

♥

♥

♥

i care about you 

i miss you so much 

i never love longer than i love you 

i found out today that i still love you so much 

♥♥

i have been trying to delete my love to you 

i have been trying to love others to forget you

i have been trying not to care for you 

i have been trying so much not to love you 

♥
♥

♥

but i think i 

can't do it 

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♥

♥

every time i see ur profile i falling for you again 

every time i see ur picture i start missing you again

every time we message i will unwilling to delete it from my mail box

every time you sad i feel sad for you 

♥
♥

♥

no matter 

♥

♥

♥

who you like,i still silently love you 

who you like, i still support you 

who you like, i won't stop you loving her

who you like, i never EVER want to spoil ur relationship

cuz i know you care for her,you love her.

i don't know 

i am not clear

i don't understand 

is this call love??

what kind of love is this?

why i acting like this.

又是一个浪费时间的一天了。。

因为现在假期。。

本来是在更改blog的。。

我尽量改一些好听的歌去放进blog里面

但是找了又找

最后呢就看了歌的mv 了

看了：

萧亚轩-EVA 的《错的人》

好伤心，好触感哦。

Kiss- 《because  im a girl》

每次看都会掉泪

Bii - 《转身之后》
好感动， 好伤心

都好伤心

心里就开始一直想着不想要遇到这些事

因为真的很让人痛心

但是我真的好想要好好哭一次

因为我觉得我受伤的伤痕还在滴血，

想好好掉一次泪。

Falling in Love

the moment of starting falling in love is sweet.
or should i say the moment when a guy keep treating you 

so good, so good
for a new relationship feels so nice.

but no one ever knows that after the few weeks of starting to know each other
will be like 

HELL!!!

you may feel still continue feel sweet
but,
i was never feel so sweet

all my relationship was never better than each past relationship

i feel so sad
therefore if one day someone ask me
"am i happy with my present relationship"

my ans will be
" i am happy during the starting of the relationship"

i duno, may be is my problem!!
i sometime personally do feel i dun have any love
to give out for the another person.

i very sad, suffocating
with all this!!

feels so lonely when i realize i dun have a person 

to talk with about 

my happiness, my life, my sadness, my disappointment, my success,
other than my friend beside me.

i wish to have another person different status from my friend

would share all this with me
and he will share his with me .

all i hope was just a simple relationship,
simple relationship

JUST simple RELATIONSHIP

is all i had been wishing for .

and i have been 

waiting

♥ 

waiting

♥

waiting 

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥until i found him ♥

What i Want!!

i dun think a normal relationship is what i want.
  i feel the loneliness is not normal loneliness
duno since when i have this kind of loneliness.

who will be my doctor to cure this loneliness??
 i still can't find the HIM that belongs to Me.
i dun even given a chance to have find for him.

i dun feel any love in the previous relationship.
     all i felt is just the emptiness in my life.

                               

                            loneliness

2nd of 9Sept 11

today, i thought i've slept until 1 in the afternoon alrdy,but when i look at the clock, it was only 11.30am.
normally during this raya week holiday i slept very late and wakes up very late too..i woke up around 12.30 or nearly to 1 pm


today,mummy go to work already. daddy appeared in the news paper again ..hehe ..
im right now sitting in front of my dearest laptop, updating my blog, chatting in facebook and update my best romance book list. i take out all the books and put in on my table rite beside my laptop then i start updating.


in case who ever reading my this post that never ever read before romance novel,i suggest you grab one and read now. not that because inside is all about steamy reading materials, but the story is nice..
the way the writer wrote it,describe everything,every place during that year...i will be so different from any novel you've read.haha..that is my opinion..hope you'll find another feeling than me


nothing much to write down today since my life is so much a bored life..
well, another thing now in my mind, my head is about my final exam.
i haven't even start studying now when all my friend started to study a lot...
what am i suppose to do ....OMG!!