5/8/11(Friday)

Friday

friday is always a free day to me .. 

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today i got morning class at 8 am till 10 am
although is a morning class
very difficult to get up this early.
but i did make it.


today my plan is to go shopping,
alone

my shopping list is 

♥ buy clothes

♥buy shoes

♥buy comics

♥buy some new makeup accessories 

♥some hair accessories

♥books perhaps

but i think i end up buying only few things
i can't get to buy clothes cuz is is too expensive

♥this both picture is hair clip accessories.♥

♥this both picture is my new shoe i bought from my shopping♥

although i didn't get to buy the clothes that i wanted to buy
but i got all this above

University's Life

i can feel my eyes are swollen
i can feel my body's temperature keep changing

i can feel the dizzyness of my head.

base on all this, i know if i continue the situation without
a rest
i know, i will fall down one day

CUZ I HAVEN'T SLEEPS FOR FEW DAYS!!

i can feel that my ability of staying up or be active has been
dramastically DECREASED!!

im tired of this kind of life,
i need some rest,
i need so space to breath,
i need to have somebody to support all the way.

my head are spinning while im typing the blog,
my eyes are like swollen while im typing this blog,

and all my hardwork,my time, my strength
on my work
was not appreciated by the group.
am i useless to you all??
when you all need me then you all ask for my help,
when you all dun need me
you will left me alone by the side
just like the child who are being left out by their parents by the road.

you may think that i've might be a bit dramatically,
but what i wrote now, here
is true, is the truth.!
what you are reading now is what im going through now!!

My life

i recently busying with my Uni's project.

a lot of thing happened around me recently.

all kind of problem, relationship,task, assignment and etc.

i think twice right now in front of my laptop, 

i dun think that i have solve the problem clean and sound.

i dun think that i have completely solve the problem.there are still got some left over from the problem.

recently, my friendship between my group of friend have changed....

changed into so unknown to me...i dun have the feel of friendship between them but just a feeling that we've been using each other all this time...the friendship bridge is just a appearance looking but the inside is just nothing but an empty tin.

i feel unsafe with them, i keep have the feeling of i've been used by people that i wished to have a long relationship. 

speaking about this something happen, one of my core sub have a group assignment. A group assignment are meant to finish together in a team, but i dun feel that im one of member in that particular team. i mean, the group have meeting about the assignment, but i never ever once knew about that it is so pathetic...it makes me feel that im not exist,not important to them at all. well then, if that case, then there is no friendship bond between us...until one day after class i wonder and ask them whether they have started to do the assignment?? then the person a.k.a friend told me that they have finished it. i was so surprise to hear that, cuz i got no idea what are they doing, what are they putting in the assignment. then she continues, she said since im not doing anything, so i will be the one to present the group and talk. it really hurts me more than i felt down, i feels like being bang by a big truck that come out of no way suddenly. 

other than that, i found that i dun even ever belong to that group of friend anymore. i suddenly feel so lonely, can i have my wife back???i nid her now by my side to comfort me that i still have her with me, i nid her now by my side walk with me up and down the whole day in the same campus. i just nid her now..~

im now groupless, friendless except the friends from same school in the campus, im all alone by myself in a stranger world. it is scary to stay in this kind of world.

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i duno where to start the story..cuz it had alrdy been a month i started my campus life and i was so buzy to stay in blogger to update my blog.


recently, i found out something new for me. For me i think is new, "may be".
well, as usual i can't get well in any group. i duno why, there is a barrier,and i duno how to break down the barrier.
it is hard for me to live this life with that barrier, im kind of  suffering with my life behind that barrier.
i feel lonely, i feel depress, i can't find my true own self.


at first, i was friend with him. he is nice,joker, even everybody hates him but for me, im still ok with it.
but recently i duno why i kind of not related with him as a friend anymore, we dun talk much.
everytime i ask him something, he will turn me down with a short answer like i duno, you ask lachelle la..
he is trying to treat me like some unknown or maybe something else, or am i really annoying him??


i duno, is my problem or his, am i reacting too over as a friend??am i already over the friendship border line??
i duno~


i duno what to do with my life, it is so miserable and suffocating...


when will get my life back??when will i get to live my life??i oso duno....haiz....

My 3rd Day In KL

3rd day in kl, 

we woke up early,

and prepare to go for sunway lagoon.

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by time we reach the sunway,the sky is dark and almost rain 

and there is a lot of people waiting over there to get in 

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then we decide to go for ice skating .

we skate after we have our lunch with my mum's cousin(aunt)

the food is nice, korean type.

then finish our lunch we go for ice skating

 my elder brother dare to move without holding the side bar.

then the 3 of us have to hold it.

then my sister feel bored and went out then followed by my little brother.

left me and my elder brother

while skating, my elder brother fell down 3 times 

and got one fellow didn't break then cross over his finger with the skate shoe and hurt his finger.

then i fell down around 3 times

and hurt my knees. after that we have to search for my sister

cause she went alone with my aunt to comic paradise.

wheew~~ spend a lot of time to find her,finding her part was so frustrating !!
all of us got mad at each other...
but finally we found her, then we went back at last...