No idea what've got into me ..

to be honest, i've don't know what've got happened on me .
im moody,im emo,im sad,im depressed

i hate this feeling.

recently, my dai yi mah always not on track,make me so dam sum.
go see doctor,doctor say maybe is my hormone got problem.
haiz....why is this kind of things happen to me ???
he oso say if i put on weight and the situation keep on i might going to the path of diabetes man !!!
DIABETES leh, dun play play o ...
it's a long life term of suffer leh >< walao,give me die i oso dun wan get this kind of sickness...

i never intake sweets,sweet carbonated drinks,any sweet stuff, even stopped my junk food so so long ago.
suddenly tell me that i might have this DIABETES call me go jump building i oso will jump de loh rather than get this kind of sickness.

now the only thing is wish,hope and pray to god for me not getting this sickness...><

im sad and emo  is because from fb i known a guy who have heart diseases,it is the third final stage le ..
he can go at anytime,the more i think about, the more im sad.

although i dun know him as well as my greatest friend, but still im sad because of his sick ...
i dun like bad things happen arround me.
i hate funeral, i hate all this negative things...

who can help me??drag me out of this kind of situation ...