My life

i recently busying with my Uni's project.

a lot of thing happened around me recently.

all kind of problem, relationship,task, assignment and etc.

i think twice right now in front of my laptop, 

i dun think that i have solve the problem clean and sound.

i dun think that i have completely solve the problem.there are still got some left over from the problem.

recently, my friendship between my group of friend have changed....

changed into so unknown to me...i dun have the feel of friendship between them but just a feeling that we've been using each other all this time...the friendship bridge is just a appearance looking but the inside is just nothing but an empty tin.

i feel unsafe with them, i keep have the feeling of i've been used by people that i wished to have a long relationship. 

speaking about this something happen, one of my core sub have a group assignment. A group assignment are meant to finish together in a team, but i dun feel that im one of member in that particular team. i mean, the group have meeting about the assignment, but i never ever once knew about that it is so pathetic...it makes me feel that im not exist,not important to them at all. well then, if that case, then there is no friendship bond between us...until one day after class i wonder and ask them whether they have started to do the assignment?? then the person a.k.a friend told me that they have finished it. i was so surprise to hear that, cuz i got no idea what are they doing, what are they putting in the assignment. then she continues, she said since im not doing anything, so i will be the one to present the group and talk. it really hurts me more than i felt down, i feels like being bang by a big truck that come out of no way suddenly. 

other than that, i found that i dun even ever belong to that group of friend anymore. i suddenly feel so lonely, can i have my wife back???i nid her now by my side to comfort me that i still have her with me, i nid her now by my side walk with me up and down the whole day in the same campus. i just nid her now..~

im now groupless, friendless except the friends from same school in the campus, im all alone by myself in a stranger world. it is scary to stay in this kind of world.